you didn't really think

somehow it's midnight and I have a 9 am client call I'm not ready for and I went out way too late with coworkers thinking it was a good idea because it's 2007 and I think it's going to be the blogging generation I could sleep through unless I stay up drinking it all up now, anyway somehow I can't turn down a free drinks party hosted by a publisher at 7:30 pm when I've worked till 7:30 pm, a publisher who coincidentally acquired us and may or may not pass through FTC approval, and I stayed at work late doing media analytics pretending like I can write a novel and still succeed at business without really trying and do it all, I always hate people who can do it all but then I wonder if I can be one of those people despite being someone who makes it despite all odds because if I'm nothing else I am hard working.
so I didn't turn down a drink in the Mission with two friends from work, and one asked another if he liked boys which is something I could never do but she was right, and here I was thinking he was just east coast, and anyway, it's not even about knowing the right people in this industry, it's just about the right place. The right people can only help you get to the right place. How is it the internet boom of 2006 and no one told us - we've all been bracing for recession but maybe systems work differently now and you just have to bend your mind the right way or be left behind.
I am moving soon.
To a place with a view.
Where hopefully my boyfriend will actually visit me.
I keep thinking these big thoughts like I could finish that half-written novel or I could live in New York or Seattle or some other great American success City.
I want to start blogging regularly again, and finishing that half-written novel.
It's just so easy to let life eat you. Or think work is enough. Or anything else is.
And God knows my friends from work drink enough to keep themselves busy outside of work.
But I have to start living life like it has a time limit. Otherwise, that's just how people end up 40 without accomplishments that don't fit on their family tree or resume.
Because everyone knows love isn't enough, or that big love, or that perfect resume.

microserf?

How is it that I went to bed and woke up a Microsoft employee?

And how long before my department gets sold again?